I'm looking at the small stack of books I've read this year, and I'm realizing, I've really done a piss poor job of it, this year, of talking about these things--and I apologize for that; not sure where the time went, not sure what I've been doing with it. Well, okay, work and school and life, yes, all that, and, a general antipathy toward writing? Something. Not an antipathy. A sense of distraction, a mood of displacement. I'm shaking myself out of it. A little bit here, a little bit there. (What's it like, to simply like a thing, and then do it a lot?)
What bugs me most is that even as I spend a significant amount of time working with a few specific books (such as Drowning Tucson, just to toss an example out there), other books, like A Visit from the Goon Squad by Jennifer Egan, really get the short shrift. Here's an author I really like who has written a book that I really like and by the time I get around to talking about it, what's there for me to remember to say? I don't know. I don't remember. Articulating the source of my enjoyment now is sort of a challenge. I remember as much that I liked this book a good deal, more than I liked The Keep, which I liked, less than I liked Look at Me, which, of course, I enjoyed whole-heartedly, though, what? My girlfriend finally read Look at Me this year; she liked it but was not clear on why I loved it. I really must add that book to the stack of books I need to re-read sooner rather than later, so I can better say today why I liked it yesterday, or however many years ago yesterday was. Which is of course what I said when I read The Keep, so...fuck.
What I can say is that I feel like this is sort of Egan's freak-out novel, a novel that really isn't a novel, a formal exploration that itches at the constraints of what it is to be a novel today. It's the frames of The Keep, cracked over the knee, and scattered at the feet. It's a book that questions the point where novels and stories intersect, without looking to make any bold claims, or really even any claims at all. It just is what it is and it doesn't look to excuse itself. My ARC, I don't see it classifying itself anywhere in print as either a novel or as a story collection which is about as it should be, this unclassifiedness--though, to be fair, I'd call it more of a novel than Drowning Tucson, which, well, really simply was not a novel at all. But this book, Goon Squad, isn't a novel, either, per se, itself. It's something else. It's a bit ragged, cast on fine strands that think of themselves as ropes. It's really more fun for it.
(Also, speaking of the differences between ARCs and official copies--this whole getting-books-before-they-are-books thing being still kind of new and fascinating to me and being something that really doesn't even happen that much, not a billionth as much as it happens for others, I mean--I'd like to ask if maybe someone with an official copy of Goon Squad and an eye for kerning can tell me if the word "From" on the cover is, uhm, doing it wrong? Anyone? I mean, I know I haven't been put through quite enough design bootcamp yet to get to be a real dillhole about it, or maybe it's just some inherent latter-day humility or something, the feeling like I've crumbed up enough of the stuff I'm supposed to be good at that to speak with any sense of emphasis about things I'm not supposed to be good at would be really like begging for a slap to the face, but, whatever, either way, yow; where's that O going? Up, up, and oway, you big fat black hole I can't help but stare at now, now that I've noticed how awkwardly you want not to join the party, R over there making out with F, M pretty much trying to go as far from you as it can. Ahem. Or maybe I'm way wrong. Anyway.)
Anyway. The reactions I've tracked on the book have been mixed, from all out "boo" to "ehhh" to "cautious yeh," which I pretty much understand. If I rave about the book and talk about it being the novel in which Egan sort of freaks out for a while, and if you hear that yes there is in fact an entire chapter set as a PowerPoint presentation (which really is pretty well done and sort of awesome in its way), I can totally understand if you expect the book to be absolutely transformative, a work of art for all eras. Expectations boosted, and all. And truth is it's not that good. I can get that someone might find it fluffy, disposable--there's portions I recall dragging for me a bit, here and there, though not enough to leave a bad taste in my mouth, not enough for me to say I less than really liked the book. Again, of course, if this was a couple months ago, I might be able to offer a better defense or deconstruction of my defense, but I'll leave it for now as, yeah, not for everybody.
That said, what I'll say is this: I think Egan's got a White Noise in her, or go ahead and pick a big novel of your choice that isn't actually big. Maybe Goon Squad is actually it, and I'm just secretly hoping it isn't so I can still have yet the best to wait for. Maybe not. Either way, I'm having fun coming along for the ride and I'm looking forward to seeing where she goes next.
But, in the meantime, if you've read Goon Squad, and you think I'm a jerk for liking it, let me know in the comments. If enough people call me a jerk, I'll have to do something about something else I'm going to talk about in a bit (or in more than a bit) so I can get myself on firmer ground from which to call you jerks right back. Or you could tell me I'm right for liking it. I'm not going to judge.